The Butterfly Garden by Danielle Greyson

Author:Danielle Greyson [Greyson, Danielle]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2016-06-18T23:00:00+00:00

I had no clue it would be hard as hell.

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Chapter 5

Trying to relax on my bed, I looked for the first time at the size of the room, it was really tiny, almost claustrophobic. If I had been in prison, I could swear this room was not bigger then a prison cell.

I think about Junior, what is he doing now? Is he alright? Had he been eating correctly? Is he missing me? How is he handling my disappearance? We had never been apart since he was born and I miss him dearly. Knowing I am not going to see my son anymore, it breaks my heart in pieces, it is the most horrible experience someone can be put through.

I couldn’t avoid but starting to cry desperately, missing my little boy that I love since his first heartbeat and now I will never see him again I wish I would be dead for real, I didn’t know if I would support such pain.

I cried for hours, my heart was shrunken from crying, breathing was hard as hell, I am so tired, my chest was feeling an enormous pressure, and I was in this unspeakable deep pain.

My pain sinks and anger arise, growing with the entire situation I am in, anger for myself because I was not able to fight for me and for my son. But I was irritated especially with Edward, how he could do that to me, using my weakness to fix his damages. Right now I really hated him, but I would never do a thing to him only because of Junior, and he knew that, he thought about everything on forward. How could I be married with that man, a man who was capable to let me die to save himself from bankruptcy, I couldn’t believe it.

I fall asleep full of anger and sadness.

The following days, although all that sadness that was embracing me as a fog in a dark night, I was living this new life and day after day it was becoming almost unbearable, I tried to get up early and search for a job, but it was no help that I did not have any identification and most of the job owners don’t hire people in my conditions.

My life was collapsing emotionally and I knew the money I earned from the diamonds wouldn’t last forever. I still had the bracelet to sell, but would last for a short time.

With no friends, no family, and no one in my life I became extremely lonely, since I am a woman with no identity I haven’t had a warm meal, I don’t feel the need to eat and I find myself going shopping for some groceries only to deceive my stomach, but the only thing I am always eager to buy, is a bottle of wine.

After another painful and unfruitful day, I drown myself in a bottle of wine in an attempt to numb my body and all my sad feelings I have ever since.

Sometimes, when I

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